Non-Verbal Struggles – 4

Why can’t speaking be easy for everyone ?

Why can’t speaking be easy for my son?

Two of the many thoughts that come across my brain while trying to figure out what’s wrong with my son as he whines, screams and squeals in total frustration.

Therapy sessions are done and it’s now time for us to go outside to the park. Due to exhaustion and a change in schedule Momma has to take a minute before our outside adventure. Unfortunately, my son doesn’t quite understand.

All he wants at this point is the tablet. Not the swing, slide, ball pit, climbing structure, or therapy ball in the living room. Not his sit and spin, rock climbing wall or trampoline. Not one of the billions of toys, books, blocks, magnatiles, games or puzzles at his complete access. He just wants a tablet. He understands no, but the regulation of his response is non- existent. Im quite sure he feels like I don’t understand, because he doesn’t understand the why behind the no.

He can’t (yet) say why Mommy ? So he cries, whines and screams in total frustration. Im grateful he isn’t harming himself because we have been there. I am grateful he isn’t attacking me because we have been there.

As a take a few deep breaths trying to catch a minute of stillness inside of me, to stay regulated and not match a bit of his energy. Ensuring I am fully prepared to transition him into calmness. On the inside I just want to scream, cry and yell.

I manage to sing some songs and play with a few toys with him to temporarily change his mood. Then I decide to put a show on television just to catch a thought and get myself ready for outside.

I used to be so jealous of Moms who have children, young little boys to be exact, who can express themselves. Now I can smile because I feel the shift coming for my son. I am patiently waiting my turn to have a conversation with my son.

One of my greatest desires right now is to hear his sweet little voice being used in clarity and confidence. The communication bridge that will be created is unmatched.

I will never accept my son being non-verbal regardless to what anyone says. He will speak. Keep hope alive Mama and remember God has the final say.